Heaven's Mind Book Series: THIS LITTLE LIGHT OF MINE...

Background:

Last week, a man called me a "Narcissist". I said thank you and wrote a blog about it as a method of self-examination. On Saturday 12/16/17, the comment was “justified” because the accuser had heard “others” say the same thing. Even though, my plan was to minimize FaceBook posts to advertisement only the remainder of the year, I required some level of interaction, socialization, and feedback to assist in the next phase of this self-examination. Often times, it is a good idea to gather data from other observers to discern whether or not you need to adjust your vision (perception) of yourself. Now, don’t get me wrong; it’s about LISTENING TO WHAT OTHERS ARE AUTHENTICALLY SAYING versus mindless chatter and unfruitful thinking. So, here are the results.

DAY#1:

SO, FUCK IT.

I AIN'T TAKING A BREAK.

IAM USING FB TO VENT AND TO PROCLAIM THAT IF IAM A NARCISSIST SO IS EVERYONE ELSE ON SOCIAL MEDIA! THAT WOULD BE THE WHOLE FUCKIN WORLD!

GOTDAMMIT, MOST OF YOU DON'T KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH TO DIAGNOSE ME WITH ANYTHING & THE ONES THAT THINK THEY KNOW ME, DONT.

DESPITE THE FACT THAT I HAVE MADE MY LIFE A GOTDAMN OPEN BOOK (LITERALLY) TO BE TO SOMEONE ELSE WHAT I NEVER FUCKIN HAD UNTIL I WAS ABOUT TO DROWN, A MUTHAFUKKIN LIGHT!

OH, BUT FOLKS CAN'T STAND TO SEE YO ASS SHINE, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY DON'T KNOW HOW FUCKIN DIRTY, MUDDY, NASTY, & STANKY YO ASS USED TO BE!

NAW, WHEN YOU MAKE THAT WALK TO THE TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN EVERY FUCKIN DAY TO LET YO LIGHT SHINE, THEY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THE FUCKIN ALLY'S & VALLEYS YOU HAD TO FIGHT YO WAY THRU, THE STONES YOU HAD TO PUSH, THE RIVERS YOU HAD TO CROSS. ALL THEY KNOW IS WHAT THEY SEE & MUTHAFUKKAS TOO CHEAP TO BUY A PAIR OF SHADES OR CHOOSE TO OPEN THE ONE EYE THAT IS EQUIPPED TO HANDLE THE LIGHT.

I DON'T HAVE TO BE HERE OR DO ANYTHING, I CHOOSE TO, BECAUSE I KNOW AT LEAST ONE YOUNG WOMAN WHO DOESN'T NEED SHADES TO LOOK AT ME & SHE VALUES THE LIGHT THAT SHINES ON HER PATH.

SO, IF YOU SEE NO VALUE IN ME. PLEASE UNFRIEND ME & DON'T SMILE IN MY FACE, IAM NOT HERE FOR YOU & DON'T NEED YOU TO FINISH THIS RACE.

DAY #2:

Thank you everyone for helping me process thru the storm yesterday. While most assume the issue is with women (some of it is), it's the men who want to label me when they can't figure me out.

Some (not all) men want me (us) to conform to some bullshit!

LISTEN UP LADIES, STRONG WOMEN, & LIGHT BEARERS!

I have had wise women & men tell me that certain men can't handle my "light" & they don't like being in the shadow. So, since they don't know how to shine with me, something is wrong with me.

My brother James says, "only a certain kind of man can deal with a woman like me".

A male friend had this to say;

"In Your case they (the accuser) is probably trying to figure out why you are so self-assured & so focused. And it was probably a dude (man) wondering why you weren't in on his bs. That is another "knack" you have. When it comes to some men there will always be something wrong with you if you're not in on their bs"!

CONCLUSION

Believe it or not the conclusion and solution are quite simple.

I will listen to your story (the melody) as the background (harmonies) play, but I will focus on the INTENTIONS which resonate from those melodic vibrations.

At the end of the day…