New Year, New You!

So, 2018 is just around the corner, and many people all over the world are preparing their "New Year" Resolutions.

Lose weight, change careers, go back to school

Get a job, get a better job, break up, fall in love, buy or sell a home, etc…

Whatever you resolve to do, LIVE!

Life is meant to be LIVED, and much of the LIVING is experienced along the path to accomplishing your visions, goals, and dreams. So, set your intentions, aim high, and then walk towards them!

I know you are thinking…

Oh Boy! Here is another “Law of Attraction Guru," a “Name It & Claim It Religious Nut," or a “New Age New Thought Spiritualist” forcing her beliefs on others. Well IAM neither. IAM a BEing who has rediscovered how to LIVE this life, through an active application. IAM merely sharing what I have remembered about LIFE’S CONCEPT OF FREEDOM, FLOW, MANIFESTATION, & LIVING IN THE NOW!

Before we get started, please review the following terms and read the case scenario. Doing so will facilitate a better "InnerstandinG" of the points which will be made later in this post.

Vocabulary

Life: (n) – 1. the condition that distinguishes animals and plants from inorganic matter, including the capacity for growth, reproduction, functional activity, and continual change preceding death. 2. the existence of an individual human being or animal. 3. the period between the birth and death of a living thing, especially a human being.

Death: (n) - the action or fact of dying or being killed; the end of the life of a person or organism; the permanent ending of vital processes in a cell or tissue.

Time: (n) -1. the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole. 2. a point of time as measured in hours and minutes past midnight. (v) - 1. plan, schedule, or arrange when (something) should happen or be done. 2.measure the time taken by

Instant: (adj) -1.  happening or coming immediately, urgent/pressing. (n) – 1. precise moment of time. 2. a very short space of time/moment.

Freedom: (n) - the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint; absence of subjection to foreign domination or despotic government; the state of not being imprisoned or enslaved

Fear: (n) - an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain or a threat. (v) - be afraid of (someone or something) as likely to be dangerous, painful, or threatening

Manifestation: (n) - an event, action, or object that clearly shows or embodies something, especially a theory or an abstract idea

Case Scenario:

In September, I moved into a (someone else’s) home which featured a master bathroom ensuite. However, I desired an immediate change in its overall appearance due to the condition of the carpeted floors and the dark colored walls. I was actually afraid to walk barefoot or touch the walls (Germaphobe).

Although I accepted and utilized the space in its undesired condition, each time I entered the area, I fantasized about solid surface flooring and visualized different colored walls. I even began looking at similar baths online to further aid in my visualization of a new look.

In mid-October (the same year), the carpet was subsequently removed and replaced with tile flooring, and the walls received a fresh neutral color application. 

There are 3 essential points I encourage you to consider, contemplate, and incorporate into your daily ritual:

1.       Embrace F.E.A.R. – Yes! Face Everything And Rise. In this new year choose to embrace your fears by acknowledging their roots in an outdated belief system.  Fear (and its’origin) is a form of restraint and enslavement, but you have the power to be FREE of those things meant to limit and/or restrict your growth, your change, your activity and your reproduction (Creativity).  By enacting your freedom to choose, you have the power to rise above your circumstances. Every one of them! Not doing so will only expedite your death.  After all, not growing, changing, reproducing, or a lack of activity manifests as an ending to all vital processes, which is death! It is what you do in between birth and death that constitutes living/life. Will you be power-full or powerless?

In the case scenario, I expressed a fear of germs and an obsession with cleanliness. I chose to exercise my freedom of speech by acknowledging the fear and taking the necessary precautions to prevent and/or minimize the possibility of becoming infected by some germ(s) through a thorough cleaning. I also reminded myself that the worst-case scenario in any undesired situation is death. I have accepted death or an ending as new life and a new beginning, such that I no longer fear death either. Additionally, I verbalized my concerns and my requirements to the property owner. Then I accepted and rose above the situation by directing my energies toward the materialization of something better.

The morning following completion of the remodel, I entered the space and literally could not conceive of the time lapse between the old and the new. To this day (2 months later) every time I utilize the bathroom, I am amazed by what seems to be an immediate transformation, and I still smile in gratitude. Will you face your fear and rise?

2.       Embrace the NOW - Remember that TIME is the past, present, and future all wrapped into one. The following equation expresses this concept: 

Time equals future minus the past, divided by the present

OR

Future – Past ÷ Present = Time or NOW

It is this application of truth which energizes and facilitates the power to Freely Manifest”! Therefore, avoid formulating a time frame in which to achieve that which you require. SIMPLY identify and acknowledge that what you expect is here NOW; then allow your energy to flow into its’ materialization. In the meantime, accept and appreciate the process (the living, the learning, the experiences) which occur between the idea (birth) and its manifestation (life). Will you accept that when is always NOW?

In the case scenario, although the calendar reflected that six weeks had passed, my brain computed one day (actually, it was more like 8 hours) between the old look and the new look.

I CALL THIS INSTANT MANISFESTATION

3.       Embrace FLOW - Refrain from concerning yourself with the “how it will happen," it is a mind-trap! When we start trying to figure out how something will work out, we allow ourselves to entertain the "what ifs," another mind-trap! Then, when we can't pinpoint the actual process that will facilitate the manifestation of that which is desired, we become fearful; yet another mind-trap.

When we attempt to design the flow of “how” our desires will manifest, we place limitations and restrictions on the process of manifestation. The “how” becomes enslaved by our (closed) mindset, bounded, and without freedom of expression. Therefore, it is imperative that we demonstrate an "open-mind" which enables creativity to flow; this concept may be expressed in the following manner:

Freedom/Open-Mind – How = FLOW

In the case scenario, I avoided the mind-trap of questioning ‘how” the change would occur. This avoidance was achieved through acceptance, acknowledgment and keeping an open mind. I was confident that change would happen! Although I did not purchase any of the materials, I (unexpectedly) installed the new tile and performed the majority of the painting myself; despite my vow to never do either again (months earlier). But, I am an interior designer, skilled painter, and good with necessary flooring installations. Therefore, performing the task myself ensured my satisfaction with the finished work, as well as a huge impact the time factor (NOW).

Will you be open to the unexpected flow? 

CONCLUSION

If you implement this formula in the New Year,

The manifestation of a NEW YOU will become clear!

“NOW + FLOW – FEAR = FREE MANIFESTATION”
                    

SHINE, RADIATE, AND MANIFEST PHYSICAL, 

MENTAL, & SPIRITUAL ABUNDANCE, PROSPERITY, AND GRATITUDE!

UNTIL NEXT TIME, WHOLENESS - CELEXY

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THIS LITTLE LIGHT OF MINE...

Background:

Last week, a man called me a "Narcissist". I said thank you and wrote a blog about it as a method of self-examination. On Saturday 12/16/17, the comment was “justified” because the accuser had heard “others” say the same thing. Even though, my plan was to minimize FaceBook posts to advertisement only the remainder of the year, I required some level of interaction, socialization, and feedback to assist in the next phase of this self-examination. Often times, it is a good idea to gather data from other observers to discern whether or not you need to adjust your vision (perception) of yourself. Now, don’t get me wrong; it’s about LISTENING TO WHAT OTHERS ARE AUTHENTICALLY SAYING versus mindless chatter and unfruitful thinking. So, here are the results.

DAY#1:

SO, FUCK IT.

I AIN'T TAKING A BREAK.

IAM USING FB TO VENT AND TO PROCLAIM THAT IF IAM A NARCISSIST SO IS EVERYONE ELSE ON SOCIAL MEDIA! THAT WOULD BE THE WHOLE FUCKIN WORLD!

GOTDAMMIT, MOST OF YOU DON'T KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH TO DIAGNOSE ME WITH ANYTHING & THE ONES THAT THINK THEY KNOW ME, DONT.

DESPITE THE FACT THAT I HAVE MADE MY LIFE A GOTDAMN OPEN BOOK (LITERALLY) TO BE TO SOMEONE ELSE WHAT I NEVER FUCKIN HAD UNTIL I WAS ABOUT TO DROWN, A MUTHAFUKKIN LIGHT!

OH, BUT FOLKS CAN'T STAND TO SEE YO ASS SHINE, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY DON'T KNOW HOW FUCKIN DIRTY, MUDDY, NASTY, & STANKY YO ASS USED TO BE!

NAW, WHEN YOU MAKE THAT WALK TO THE TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN EVERY FUCKIN DAY TO LET YO LIGHT SHINE, THEY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THE FUCKIN ALLY'S & VALLEYS YOU HAD TO FIGHT YO WAY THRU, THE STONES YOU HAD TO PUSH, THE RIVERS YOU HAD TO CROSS. ALL THEY KNOW IS WHAT THEY SEE & MUTHAFUKKAS TOO CHEAP TO BUY A PAIR OF SHADES OR CHOOSE TO OPEN THE ONE EYE THAT IS EQUIPPED TO HANDLE THE LIGHT.

I DON'T HAVE TO BE HERE OR DO ANYTHING, I CHOOSE TO, BECAUSE I KNOW AT LEAST ONE YOUNG WOMAN WHO DOESN'T NEED SHADES TO LOOK AT ME & SHE VALUES THE LIGHT THAT SHINES ON HER PATH.

SO, IF YOU SEE NO VALUE IN ME. PLEASE UNFRIEND ME & DON'T SMILE IN MY FACE, IAM NOT HERE FOR YOU & DON'T NEED YOU TO FINISH THIS RACE.

DAY #2:

Thank you everyone for helping me process thru the storm yesterday. While most assume the issue is with women (some of it is), it's the men who want to label me when they can't figure me out.

Some (not all) men want me (us) to conform to some bullshit!

LISTEN UP LADIES, STRONG WOMEN, & LIGHT BEARERS!

I have had wise women & men tell me that certain men can't handle my "light" & they don't like being in the shadow. So, since they don't know how to shine with me, something is wrong with me.

My brother James says, "only a certain kind of man can deal with a woman like me".

A male friend had this to say;

"In Your case they (the accuser) is probably trying to figure out why you are so self-assured & so focused. And it was probably a dude (man) wondering why you weren't in on his bs. That is another "knack" you have. When it comes to some men there will always be something wrong with you if you're not in on their bs"!

CONCLUSION

Believe it or not the conclusion and solution are quite simple.

I will listen to your story (the melody) as the background (harmonies) play, but I will focus on the  INTENTIONS which resonate from those melodic vibrations.

At the end of the day…

STICKS AND STONES MAY

BREAK MY BONES,

BUT WORDS WILL NEVER HURT ME!

(Your words only have power over me IF I allow them to and well today,

they don't have permission!)

Until next time,

Radiate, Vibrate, & Shine; Rightly Divining Wholeness!

-CeleXy

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DID YOU CALL ME A NARCISSIST?

Well, Thank You!

Hello HMAT Readers!

It is 12:30am EST on Wednesday 12/13/17.

I just fully recovered from a migraine headache that began a week ago with a vengeance, diminished over the weekend, and then resurfaced Monday afternoon. Now that I am feeling much better, I decided to write about something that has been weighing on my heart and may have even been the trigger to my migraine. 

I was recently told (by someone I care about) that I am a narcissist. 

“I know right”? That's exactly what I said, "WAIT, WHAT?!

I was told that I "lack compassion and empathy, and that I only appear to care about myself".

My next response, "THANK YOU!"

To be honest, I had gotten that a lot since I had open heart surgery in 2012 (see my previous blogpost entitled, "In the World, But not of the World").

The person looked at me in total disbelief and thus, my saga begins...

Look, for the first several years of my life I was sexually abused. I never told anyone, in an effort, to protect the abusers and I concluded that the abuse was an expression of love (having witnessed adults willingly engaged in and actually enjoying the activity). During family get-togethers, the adults would ask me to sing as a form of (their) entertainment and I was ALL IN, and even learned to love the attention so much that I joined church just to sing in the choir. 

As a teenager, I was forced to babysit "Bae-Bae" kids (my little brother and two nieces) without pay. When I learned I could earn money French-braiding hair for all the little girls on my block, I used the money to throw them parties, Easter Egg hunts, and even sponsored "Penny Candy Day". Oh, and then at the tender age of 16, I delivered my own little “Bae-Bae” to attend to. So, now I am a baby trying to take care of a baby! 

 Later, in life after having another baby and gaining a husband, I decided that I needed more people to need me, so I went back to college to become a nurse. My first year of nursing school ended with me having yet another baby, who of course, needed me too. 

Then, I discovered that my 1^st husband did not need me anymore.  And, my father (an alcoholic) whom I was also caring for, didn't need me anymore either. Therefore, I decided (at least in my mind) that all the babies at Riley Hospital needed me during my pediatric clinical rotation in nursing school. I seemed to gravitate toward those infants and children who were the most neglected by their parents and families. I even thought I would proceed in establishing a career in pediatrics, but I figured I would end up in jail at some point. You see, I strongly felt an urge to take the babies home with me or beat the shit out their parents. Yeah, neither of those solutions would have ended well for me or the children (not to mention my own); so, I opted to begin my nursing career (post-graduation) on an adult medical/surgical unit at a hospital that did not even have a PED’s unit.

I still didn't have enough people to need me so, I became a minister just after graduating from nursing school. Not only did the church need me as a choir member and minister, but they needed me to start a "Kids Kamp", a "Breakfast Ministry"; remodel the sanctuary, women's bathroom, fellowship hall, and kitchen. They also needed me to redesign the Pastor's office, join the gospel group, and start a Women's Ministry to facilitate the needs of needy families in the community. 

Eventually, I decided to get another husband (who had a lot of potential) to be my next project. You see, he needed me too! Of course, I had to convince him that he needed me, by showing him ALL my skills, talents, and abilities, as well as, remind him of my ever growing nursing salary. You might say, I purchased him at a discount price with plans to redeem great rewards from my investment.

During all those years, my focus was on everybody else. Meeting their needs and deciding that if they looked good, felt good, ate good, etc.…; it would cast a shining reflection on me. You know what I am talkin' about... 

My goal was to become a combination of Abigail and the Proverbs 31 Virtuous Woman. Like Abigail (1 Samuel 25) I was on my way to being that "woman of high socioeconomic status" and like the Virtuous woman, I wanted to be "praised in the gates", and prove my "worth to be far above the price of rubies".

You see I developed a “NEED TO BE NEEDED” complex at a very early age. “Uh Huh”.

However, any reputable psychologist would label me as demonstrating co-dependent behavior as evidenced by “people pleasing - going out of my way and sacrificing my own needs to accommodate those of other people”.

Well, one day I looked up and everything was gone. Two husbands, three sons (now men), the ministry, the choir, the gospel group, the kids kamp, the breakfast club, the women's ministry, and my sanity. 

It took an additional two years, two psychologists, one psychiatrist, three anti-anxiety medications, Lunesta, Vybrid, Lisinopril, Vodka, FMLA, three men-friends, and a spiritual guru, for me to finally realize that I NEEDED ME!

You see, I adopted a belief that my value was defined by how and what I did to please other people (whether I wanted to do it or not). I had never learned how to say NO and not feel guilty about it. I made decisions based upon how it would impact other people. I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings, and I wanted everyone to like me.  I was so sick that I purposely and intentionally sought out people to fix, to heal, to feed, to need…. Me.

And, the church taught me how to stay “busy being busy”. I made certain there was never time to feel sorry for myself, to examine myself, to criticize myself, or even really look at myself. Oh sure, I bathed and dressed nice (for an obese woman), got my hair and nails done to look like the part of the successful woman, wife, mother, and minister I had created in my mind. The woman, for whom every wrong she ever made in life was righted by giving of herself continually unconditionally.

Oh! But Baby, when I woke up…

Everything about me and life was beautiful!

It took me 45 years to learn to love and appreciate EVERY ASPECT of myself. I have learned to give to myself. I have learned to honor myself. I have learned to satisfy myself. But, most of all, I have learned to say YES to myself; and to others, NO when I mean NO and YES when I mean YES. And finally, I have NO room in my life for a worthless emotion that humans refer to as GUILT.

For the last five years IT HAS BEEN about me (call it excessive if you choose) but I continue on that path of self-discovery even today; while for 45 years it was about everything and everyone else. So, I just may choose to take 45 more years to get back to the middle, to the center, to rediscover balance, or as the ancients call it, MA’AT!

The reality is this, IAM self-aware (conscious) and IAM interested in me and I admire the gifts, talents, abilities, experiences, and knowledge imputed in me. It is this awareness which enables me to willingly, generously, and confidently share myself with the world. With each breath I take, I desire to infect with love, to have my smile be contagious, to cause an epidemic of harmonious laughter, song, and dance, and to provoke beautiful mind transformations in pandemic proportions through the writing and sharing of words, sound, resonance, vibration and energy. After all, it is what we are created to do and IAM offering my portion to the fullest!

Until next time - Shine, Radiate, & Vibrate / Rightly Divining Wholeness! 

CeleXy

I have added some additional information below to enable you to

further explore and research specific points made in the above blog post.

http://www.health.com/health/gallery/0,,20981393,00.html#what-is-narcissism-exactly--0

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2013/04/04/signs-of-codependence-codependent-behavior/
Ma’at - https://www.ancient.eu/Ma%27at/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/guilt-the-crippling-emotion/

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In the World, But Not of the World:

"What in the Hell Does That Mean"?

Are you like me?

I mean, did you come from a strong religious upbringing which teaches us to,

“Live in the world, but not be of the world” as in John 17:16/KJV?

 Or the teaching which states we should, ^“Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.  For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth forever”. (1 John 2:15-17/KJV)?

And what about this one, “Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?  And what concord hath Christ with Belial? or what part hath he that believeth with an infidel? And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people⁷ Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you.¹⁸ And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.” 2 Cor.6:14-18/KJV?

If so, then like me you often found yourself wondering,

“what in the hell does all this mean?”!

As a young adult easily influenced by my family, the church, and society, I was led to believe that this meant to refrain from all sorts of behavior or places which lent themselves to evil and/or sin. This includes not watching certain television programs (or television at all), reading books (other than the bible), going to the movies, parties or clubs, bars and anything else the “world” considers entertainment. Additionally, you must never be found in violation of the ten commandments outlined in the book of Exodus 20.

And though these are the things that we are taught (say that a few times), they most positively have been and are violated daily by most everyone (including the clergy) and on a fairly consistent basis.

After serving as a minister for ten years at local non-denominational church, I began to question many of the scriptures, teachings, doctrines, and behaviors of the so-called religious including myself. There were no answers to be found to satisfy the curiosity and frustration of my new mental processes, which required rationale and proof “as evidenced by”, thanks to a career in the medical field. As a result, I sought to find my own answers and the journey led me to sources beyond the traditional church.

Eventually, I encountered the dreaded “dark night of the soul” (there may be more than one).

Yes, the perfect life I had so carefully established, was crumbling right before my very eyes; in spite of my religious upbringing and servant lifestyle. As I lay on the floor prostrate; in total disbelief about the reality and finality of my situation; I still wholly believed in the healing power of a God I could not see and a mediator (Jesus) who had died for my sins (yet rose again on the 3^rd day) could not see him either.

"Talk about the Blind leading the Blind"

I laid there waiting for my midnight hour to pass, waiting for my joy in the morning, where I would somehow let my little light shine again, waiting for that still small voice to inform me that my latter would be greater than my past. It never came! I continued to lye on the floor drowning in the tears and suffocating from the secretions building up in my nose and throat and I desired death to relieve me of my pain and sorrow.

“Yes it was that bad” 

I know now that, I was dying, my spirit was dying, and eventually the physical death would follow suit as the life sustaining force dissipated from my body.

“Bitch! Get your ass up and live!

“What the hell? Who said that? I am still lying on the floor, though fully alert, and wondering, “Who or what just called me a bitch"?

You see, IAM clearly a woman of color (see my profile pic) and if you don’t know anything else about black girls, know this. B-I-T-C-H are spelling letters which create a FIGHT, between the one which cast the spell and the one who is the subject of the spell.

And Baby! I was damn sho ready to fight!

Suddenly, I realize there is no one in the room but me, so I jump to my feet, run to my bedside table, and grab my bible. I search for the following scripture as if being told to do so:

“He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal”. (John 12:25/KJV).

“WHOOMP! THERE IT IS!!!”

“Oh, My Fuckin Goodness! I Get It!”

Everything I had learned and experienced in life (up to and including that point) led me to that defining moment, seven years ago. It was never meant for me to love this life or this world, only to learn and experience it for what it is. Good, Bad or indifferent.

"All the same, but we will save that for another blog" 

For the first time, I understood, what it meant to be in the world, but not of the world and able to acknowledge that the two concepts exist simultaneously. You see my (our) spirit, that which is and gives life, is beyond this world, universe, galaxy and material existence.  While this (our) body, is that which serves as the vehicle to enable ME (us) to dwell on terra firma, mother earth, the world. The two will never become one, but instead must learn to function and operate materially as such.

Now! Following that Mindblowing revelation, this memorized scripture (words hidden in my heart) rang out loud and clear in my spiritual ears (fully opened and operable):

^“And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God”. Romans 12:2/KJV).

"Oh Yeah! Now I remember!"

(In my Betty Wright voice, from the song, “Tonight is the Night")

You have to be at least 50 years old to understand that quote!

So now, let me break All it down for you (at least from my perspective).
Everyday is different from the next and everyday you are also different from the day before, without any effort on your part. With each experience, be it new, the same or otherwise, it automatically creates a level or form of change; and if, you are also learning something new, improved, or otherwise it creates even more change. No matter if anything else visibly changes (according to our vision with physical eyes), your mind and “minds” eye (3^rd eye) will be forever altered/changed, and therefore renewed, which lends itself to a spiritual transformation.

Now, here is the kicker. If, and when you allow yourself to APPLY the inner change which results from your everyday experiences, (TO YOU) it becomes WISDOM; the outward/external manifestation of the inward/internal spiritual transformation.

Simplified Example: You choose to walk down a particular street on the way to work or school. The first day you stumble over a crack in the sidewalk and break the heel of your shoe. The second day, you do the same thing, although you are aware (conscious) that the crack exist, you manage to stumble again (ruining another pair of shoes). The third day, you choose to wear a pair of flats, walk around the crack, walk on the opposite side of the street, choose a different street, drive, or don’t go to work/school at all to avoid stumbling.

"My Mother used to sing a song (in church) asking God not to remove her  stumbling cracks, rocks, blocks, or something;
but instead, to lead her All around them. Hmmm???"

Anyway, not choosing to make an alternate choice on the third day, could result in something much worse than a broken heel; such as a broken ankle or leg.

The point is, an ordinary experience with an unintended outcome (perceived as negative in this example) could and should result in a change of thinking and behavior.

Now, I’d call that “born again”, “renewed”, and “transformed”

This process further reflects and defines your ever evolving DIVINITY (unity between your spiritual body and your physical/material body). That which was divided appears unified, single minded versus double minded. The body no longer walks blindly, but is instead led by the Spirit!

“Come on and go with me somebody!”

It also serves as proof that you are not conforming to the world, you are consistently transforming into that BE-ing which is good, perfect, and acceptable to ALL(ah), God, Goddess, Spirit, Yahovah, Creator, Created, the All Knowing, Power, Divine Essence, Divine Energy, Divine Intelligence, and Source; which is, YOU!

I said ALL of that to say this…

On the days I want to throw in the towel, call it quits, and leave this place called earth; on the days, I could care less about politics, government, corporate america, healthcare, insurance, loans, debt, and money; on the days, I recognize that life truly is a mega game or no less than a lesson called illusion; I remind myself that if I stick with it, reach for the mark referred to as the “Calling”, the 33^rd Degree, Enlightenment, Crown Chakra, KRYSTOS, Crystal Palace, or Detachment AND desire “undesire”, I will never have to come back to this UniVersity.

So, who called me a bitch?

I have come to "INNERSTAND" that it was
My Higher Conscious, My Godhead-Goddess, My OverSoul,

My “Beautiful-Intelligent-Talented-Creative-Heaven” – I call her CeleXy!

Until Next Week,

 Shine, Radiate, Vibrate

rightly divining WHOLENESS!

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